The Inspiration Behind Her Writing
I am unable to forget about my past—all of the people who have hurt me, scared me, wounded me. I am unable to push myself forward in life and to live in the present. Life is short, and people say that time is too good to waste, but for me it seems that time is too short. I guess I am able to say that my past has influenced my writing, and that is why I write what I write. Right now I am sitting in my room on my laptop, listening to The Birthday Massacre and remembering how people said I wasn’t “cool”, how people accused me of plagiarizing without getting the facts down, how I was once physically abused by this one bitch who had tried to steal my friend away from me. Those people who fit into one of those categories (and there are more categories out there) are who influenced my book and the songs that I write—my writing in general. Like what my favorite singer Kerli said in one song, “Hurt me. See me crawling on the floor. Is that what you’ve been longing for? Hurt me. Is this enough? Do you want more? Go on if it makes you soar!” The dark thoughts that I think about were inspired by them. If you are one of those people, I would not be surprised if you one day woke up with a knife to your throat. That is what you deserve, that is what I call karma, though I do not believe in karma. The name “The Birthday Massacre” has a pleasant ring to it—it fits my mood, now, don’t you think?